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Hi,

While desperately looking online for help I came across this forum. I am hoping there is someone here that can help me or, perhaps, there is someone with an experience that can relate and provide feedback.

I lost my baby boy on November 19, 2021 to a terrible, but avoidable, accident. It will be 3 months in a couple of days but it still feels like it was yesterday. I have not functioned properly since that day and I feel like things are only getting worse. I knew the pain would last a long time but I didn't expect this level of mourning. I've lost friends / family but none of those events compare to this.

Presley was a 1 1/2 year old mini Aussie (or American shepherd) He was my pride and joy, my best friend, and an amazing companion. He was taken from me far too early and I don't know how to recover.

I'm a 43 year old male with no biological children so that likely had something to do with the type of bond we had. I do have two step daughters but something with Presley was different. I can truthfully say that I was in love with him; Presley filled a void that I didn't know I was missing.

Presley was sought out due to my diagnosis with Kidney disease. I knew I would have a lot of time on my own and I wanted someone around for company. I built a framework around this Journey we were going to embark on but apparently the universe had other plans.

I think a lot of the pain / sorrow is guilt but I haven't figured out a way to control it. I am a huge animal person and also very empathetic by nature.

Since that day I have spent countless hours working on something to express my love and gratitude for Presley. It has been the source of many tears but I felt the need to do something so he wouldn't be forgotten. I want to share it to the forum for Presley, for myself, and to relay a message that I feel everyone needs to know. (one which many of you likely already do) Never, ever, chase a scared or lost animal.. Please tell / teach the proper procedure to anyone you know. Had my family, the local police department, and the local humane society understood this simple lesson my baby boy would still be alive today.

If you have time, please take a moment to watch my tribute http://www.ourbabydog.ca

Please keep in mind I have no experience with video creation / editing but I did the best I could with what I had. The video is not monetized and I am not asking anyone here for anything other than advice / feedback. I created this Tribute so others could experience my boy and to express why I feel how I do.

I appreciate everyone's time and suggestions.