05/04/19 - 30/10/20
Human family: White
Photo(s) of Shaman (2)

Shaman

Shay, I don't know where to start other to say than you will always be in my heart and I love you dearly. You were brought into my life one Saturday morning completely out of the blue. I didn't want a dog, nor knew what joy (and heart ache) a dog could bring to my life. You helped me through some very challenging times. You distracted me, showed me laughter and joy. I loved our walks together and to watch you grow. I still believe you were put in my path, and I in your path for a reason. I just wish I knew what that reason was. You were always so handsome and had the most beautiful eyes and fur. I knew you had suffered trauma at the hands of other people, I just didn't realise how much. I could see your body wasn't working correctly due to the stress you had suffered. I know that you worried you wouldn't stay with us. You had been passed around so much in your short life and it was cruel. I know you had felt extreme abandonment, sadness and pain- you will never know how much it hurts me that someone did that to you. It was wrong and I can only apologise on behalf of some cruel, evil and misinformed humans. We may have started with the thought we could help rehabilitate you and then find you a new home but we bonded with you and instantly knew that you needed that stability. We were never going to pass you on and you will have a home with us for life. You were so funny and brought such laughter to the house. You were so big! Your energy and presence have left a huge hole. A hole I see every single day. Not a day goes by where I don't think about you, or miss you. You were part of our family and always will be. I wish I got more time with you. I hope more than anything that one day we will find each other again. Just to feel your fur and warmth would bring me such happiness. I hope the pain, anxiety and trauma have gone now and you are at peace. It was very hard for me to be there for those final moments with you but I couldn't of had it any other way. I loved you as my own and I'm sorry we let you down. Thank you for every day you spent with us, all the lessons you taught us. I always think of you tucked up in your bed which you didn't really fit in but you loved it none the less. The day you died, a part of my soul died with you and I'm not sure it will ever come back. I think about you every day and see you in all the places you used to be. I hope you know how much we loved you. All my love, forever and always, L & G xxx

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