Unknown - 03/09/13
Human family: Andy Cast
Photo(s) of Jezebel Cast (2)

Jezebel Cast

As I lay here with you purring on my tummy, my heart is breaking.
I don't want to say goodbye, but they say I should, that you are in pain and there's nothing they can do to make you better.
I can't stop crying and you look at me as if to say 'what's wrong daddy?' You look at me with trusting eyes and yet I have to make the decision to let you go.
I can't see what's wrong with you and they can't tell me, other than your tummy is filling with gas and that is making you uncomfortable.
I know I have to let you go, but the thought of it makes me sob. My heart hurts so much at the thought of you going. This is the hardest, most horrible thing I have had to do.
Ozzie doesn't understand what's happening. He knows something's not right, but he doesn't want to come near you because you smell 'strange'.
The pain medication they've given you is making you drowsy and a bit floppy which just makes you seem even more vulnerable. I feel sick to my stomach and yet I have to say goodbye.
You and Ozzie have been with me for eleven years now, moving around with me, sometimes staying with friends if I couldn't have you with me, but you have loved me no matter how many times we have moved.
They say cats don't love you, they just love the food you give them. Well that's not true. I have always felt loved, even when you haven't wanted cuddles or fuss.
I hate seeing you like this, so drowsy and lifeless. Where's the little cat who lives up to her name - Jezebel? The one who loves to sit on the wall at the front of the house so she can flirt with every stranger that walks by.
I know I have to say goodbye to you. It's not fair to keep you like this and I don't want you to be in pain.
So I will have to be strong and let you go, but you will always be in my heart.

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